The Engine Room

My one and Only

2006-06-01T11:02:00.001-07:00

In case you didn't catch this little blurb I posted in response to a creepy anonymous girl on my blog, I think you all should read this (I guess you should, too "Katie"):

yeah, about that, my parents want you to stop calling the house, because we captured a number from one of the messages you left us, and they are really close to calling the police because they're sick of the anonymous phone calls. Another thing? I wasn't working this weekend, nor did I say I was. I spent the entire weekend with Randi.
Guess what else? You're NEVER going to "jump my bones", so keep waiting. Maybe you should hold your breath?I'm not seeing you, I'm not sleeping with you, hell-I don't even know you! What the hell is your deal anyways?
Oh, and trying to be "Katie" from ACEN won't work because I've never spoken with her on AIM, and I asked her about this and she didn't have a clue. Nice try, though.
If you are someone who I know and you're using a different name because you're a coward; don't you ever call me or ask to hang out with me again, for your own sake.
I'll find out about you eventually because nobody covers their tracks that well.
For now, Randi knows I'm not with you, nor do I want to be, my close friends who I can trust around here will back me up that I haven't even seen you (Bob doesn't remember hanging out with you, were you sitting in the same booth with us? if you were, then you must be invisible.
Randi is my one and only, and that's how it's going to stay, so leave us alone.
~J.

I'm tired of being called, I'm tired of people thinking I'm a liar. I'm tired of everyone but my girlfriend thinking that I'm cheating on her. You're hurting her, too, at this point. I just...she believes me, and so do all of my close friends here in Chicago. In fact, my best friend Bob is thoroughly creeped out by this whole thing because his name was mentioned.
What wasn't mentioned was that this person wasn't with us at all, nor have I ever met her (or if I have, she's using a pseudonym to keep her identity anonymous).
Didn't you all notice how she was posting almost every other day while Randi was in Jamaica? Doesn't it strike you as odd that the comments started while Randi was away from me and frequency of comments on my site decreased as soon as Randi got back.
Doesn't that seem a little odd? Like someone is trying to tear us apart? There are other reasons for doing something like this other than "exposing a liar and a cheater" and "protecting Randi" like Zach seems to think.
This person who is posting like they know me probably is one of the people that I thought I could trust, who is bitter that I chose Randi over her to be together. This person is sitting at home, angry with the world, bitter, and jealous. Therefore it stands to reason that they would try to tear Ran and I apart, so that she could step in and "comfort" me and win me for herself after breaking us up.
It's subversive,
It's cowardly,
and I hope that "Katie", whoever you are, is happy that her efforts are only backfiring and making Randi and I talk more and try to be together more.
I miss Ran, and I'm not going to try to replace her with anyone else. I never could, and I never would.
Stop calling my house, stop posting bullshit on my site to make me look like a cheater, and stop being a subversive, cowardly little bitch.
Again, if I know you, and I thought I trusted you, then you better come clean soon, or don't ever talk to me again.
Okay, you get the point, I'm done ranting.

~J.

My one and Only

2006-06-01T11:02:00.000-07:00

People in General

2006-05-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

I realize that all of you pretend to care about the well-being of Randi, but why are you all so persistent?

How do you know for sure that everything you are saying is truth? I don't even know you, so how can you be proof-positive that you're correct in trying to tear my relationship with Randi apart? How could that EVER be the right thing?

I admit to lying, and I know I will probably do it again, not because I'm a chronic liar, but because I'm human and I tend to fuck up from time to time.
She wants all of you to leave her alone, so why don't you? If you have a problem, take it up with me, don't be a manipulative, underhanded little bitch and just go to my girlfriend, imploring her to dump me.

If you want to fuck up my life, start with me. I don't know what everyone's problem is, but it seems like a much bigger problem than any of mine. Maybe you all just need a hobby?

In short, you all need to mind your own business and go fuck yourselves. She and I are happy where we're at, and I don't think anything you say to her on an anonymous blogpost is going to change that. All it's doing is pissing her off, and she's not getting pissed off at me. Figure that one out.

Good day,

~J.

Dancin' In The Dark

2006-05-15T21:34:00.000-07:00

I'm listening to Pete Yorn's "Dancin' in the Dark" and I'm thinking about Ran. I miss her so much. I just got off the phone with her a few minutes ago, and she sounds like she's having the time of her life in Jamaica. I'm glad she is. She of all people definitely deserves it.

I miss her scent, and how her kisses feel. --->

I'm not quite sure who this person who keeps posting comments on here is. I don't know her, nor have I danced with her, nor do I really care to know her because it's creepy to anonymously post things like that.

The only "Angel of my Dreams" is my Randi. I love her, and I am staying faithful to her no matter what. I find it disturbing that you took the moniker from her site, as well.

Ran's site has the subscript "Created for you by the angel of your dreams..."

Who are you and why do you feel the urge to comment?

Anyways, Randi, if you read this, I love you and I miss you baby.

The rest of y'all have a wonderful night.

~J.

At this point...

2006-05-11T22:58:00.000-07:00

At this point, I have realized that nothing is sacred here on this internet. Also, some people put way too much effort into things on here.

I have also come to the conclusion that I'm damned whatever I do, so you all can just suck my balls if you don't like me or what I'm doing.

It's my life. Not yours. So unless I'm directly affecting you, you can also suck it. You have been cowardly, inconsiderate towards every party (this includes Hillary), and overall I find your conduct almost worse than the accusations you throw at me.

Why are you so afraid to expose your identity? Think it might piss too many people off?
Anyways, I give up on subscribing to your bullshit. Say what you like, you have no say in what I do or say.

Thank you ^__^

2006-05-11T11:24:00.000-07:00

Some photos for you all to peruse:

The Engine Room

2006-05-11T09:03:00.000-07:00

So yeah, here is the new domain for me to post some of my thoughts because my other ones have been discovered by too many people.

Welcome to The Engine Room. Here I might just open some valves and vent out what's boiling over within me from time to time.

Other times, I might just post some happy random comment (I have many).

Enjoy the read, and I hope that nothing offends you, but if it does; you can just go somewhere else now can't you?